“I Don’t Need to Live Behind a Filter because….” Blank, Blank, Blank. Do I have quirks I’ve attempted to mask? How would it feel to live unfiltered knowing God approves of my traits? Have I given into the lie that I need to be flawless? Is there anyone, with whom I can be free around? Yes, amazing, great yep, depends. The older I get, the harder this challenge seems to get. As a teenager, I was appropriately quirky for a homeschooled, world traveling, bible believing American kid. Life was always so exciting, always an adventure and remarkably so, adulthood has been the same. Yet, the hard of that time is a different hard. I still worry about the opinions of others, I still think; “oh, I hope they like me.” Now, it has shifted from the fear of being to different and not fitting in with the social media culture, matching the popular aesthetic, and wishing I looked more like everyone else to wondering how I seem to fit in and when everyone will realize its a mistake. I’ve gone from superficial judgments of masking appearance to the haunting concern of the substance of who I am is lacking. The older I get the less I want and can filter. My energy, passion, and attention is to precious to waste on endless circles of doubts as to the worthiness of my character, being, and attractiveness of my personality. Yet, I still do it. I still need reminded that God in all his grace and wisdom; wouldn’t leave me alone to be bound to a life of pleasing others, filtering and altering myself to fit the latest trend. So, for this week I am going to remember, “I don’t need to live behind a filter because I am seen as I am and loved as I am.”
#LoveYourSelfieChallenge!
Tip: At least once this week; read Psalm 139. Ask yourself, What Am I really hiding? Decide to open one thing, change one thing you try to hide. Let your actions reflect your words. Genuinely.
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